Birds are chirping, the sun is shining, the wind is blowing and the flowers are blooming...but my soul is dying. "Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!" had been erased from my dictionary.
Was expecting support from people that were the closest to me but I'd been slapped with a massive dissapointment in the face. Picture perfect painting destroyed right before my eyes. I don't want to be depended on, this burden. When I'd tried to lean on others, it just doesn't seem fair to them, does it?
I want to be selfish, very very selfish. I want to be ignorant, hopelessly ignorant. I had enough of this mask I put on. My emotional pillar is slowly crumbling from within. My sanity is slowly slipping away. Thinking too much is draining my energy. Denial is me and I'm a master escape artist.
A shoutout to the world:
You f&!#%^$# rotten hell hole!!!!!!
I'd wish people would understand me?! Who am I kidding....
It feels like I'm writing a suicide note, S.O.S.
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