Thirst ( Man in Love ) - 슈퍼주니어

It's one of my most played song for now. When I'm doing my work, I'd listen to it. When I'm driving, it's on full blast. When I'm eating, I'd imagine I'm listening to it. When I close my eyes to sleep, it auto-plays in my brain......

Thirst (Super Junior - Don't Don[repackaged])
슈퍼주니어 - 갈증(Original Ver.)

naui gobaek achime nun tteosseul ttae bogosipeuneolguldo
naui gipeun jameun kkaewobeorin saramdo
geunyeo apeman seomyeon babogateun naingeol
eotteon maldo hal su eopge sumi makhyeoojanha

neoui meoritgyeol geu songarak geu misoreul jitneun ipsul kkeutkkaji
nuguwado bakkul su eomneun geunyeomanui saekkkare nan ppajyeobeoryeosseo
heeoseutaildo geu nunbitto dokteukhan ne maltukkajido
nae insaengeul bakkul suga isseulmankeum chungbunhaesseo

jigeum neoreul hyanghae gago isseo
ijen amugeotdo naui gireul mageul suga eomneungeotdo
geunyeomanui han namjaga doedeonga
anim geunyeo mameul naega humchyeobeorilkka

ip aneseo maemmaem dora (nae gobaek)
michilgeotman gateun nae simjeongeul (You know)
amudo alji motae
taneun deutan nae mongmareumdo
neoui siseondo neoui immatdo niga jeulgyeodeutneun noraekkajido
neoui gyeote inneun modeungeon naui gwansimui chojeomi doego maneungeol
neoui danjeomdo ne apeumdo ijen nae geosi doebeoryeosseo
ne seulpeumeul hamkke halsu inneungeollo haengbokhaesseo

nan cham eoriseogeun nomingeol
neoreul hyanghan eotteon maeumdo malhal su inneun yonggiga eopseo
nan jayurowojigo sipeo
ne ape dagaseol su inneun nal nan gidaryeo

ne eolgureul barabone
ne jageun eokkaereul gamssabeoryeonne
seoseohi tadeureoganeun ipsuri neukkyeojine
uri seoro eotteon pyohyeondo deo isangui eotteon maldeullo
huippuyeon angaedeullo dwideophin kkael su eopdeon
geugeon kkumieosseo kkumieosseo

nan jal moreujiman saramdeul malhaneungeon
meotjin seonmullo nae jasineul seontaekhaneungeoya
nae kkumeul nanwojul su inneun sojunghan sarami nega doejugil
In my love
Baby naebeoryeodwo naega saranghaneun gireun
nae gireul modu boyeojul su itge
gaseumi apa nae momi malla
nan mogi malla nae mureul dalla
deo isang nae gaseumane mudeobeorin inyeoneuro kkeutnael suga eopseo
gaseumi apa nae momi malla
nan mogi malla nae mureul dalla

neoui meoritgyeol geu songarak geu misoreul jitneun ipsul kkeutkkaji
nuguwado bakkul su eomneun geunyeomanui saekkkare nan ppajyeobeoryeosseo
heeoseutaildo geu nunbitto dokteukhan ne maltukkajido
nae insaengeul bakkul suga isseulmankeum chungbunhaesseo

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Translation

My confession, the moment I open my eyes in the morning I want to see you
The person who's woken me from my deep sleep
When I'm standing in front of her I become dumbfounded
I'm not able to say a single word because I can't even breathe right

Your shiny hair, your fingers, even your lips that form that bright smile
Her colors no one can switch with, I've fallen deep into
Your hairstyle, your gaze, even your unique way of talking
It was plenty enough to change my life around

Right now I'm going forward towards you
There's nothing that can block my way now
Either I become her one and only
Or I steal her heart

The choices keep circling around in my mouth (My confession)
My heart that's going crazy (You know)
No one knows
Not even my parched throat

Your gaze, your appetite, even the songs you enjoyed listening to
Everything around you is becoming of my interest
Your weaknesses, your pain has now become mine
I'm happy being able to share your sadness

I'm such a foolish man
I don't even have the courage to tell you how I feel
I want to become free
I'm waiting for the day to come when I'll be able to stand in front of you

(Rap)
I'm looking at your face
I put my arms around your shoulders
I can feel the burning of my lips
There's no need to express anything anymore, there's no need for words
The smoky fog has covered everything, I can't wake up
It was all a dream, a dream

I don't really know, but this is what people are saying
I'm to choose my courage with an awesome present
I want you to be my precious person
I can share my dreams with
In my love

Baby, leave my road to love alone
I want to show you my entire road
(Rap)
My heart hurts, my body's dehydrating
I'm getting thirsty, give me water
I can no longer end it with this fate that I've buried inside my heart
(Rap)
My heart hurts, my body's dehydrating
I'm getting thirsty, give me water

Your shiny hair, your fingers, even your lips that form that bright smile
Her colors no one can switch with, I've fallen deep into
Your hairstyle, your gaze, even your unique way of talking
It was plenty enough to change my life around

Marry U (Jazz)+ 돈돈! +Man In Love(Remix) - Golden Disk 071214
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credit : Soompi + arche @ multiply + symbelmyn @ youtube

Random Cuteness

I'd guess out of those emo post that I had put up, it's time for some laughter to clear up the dark couldy skies. I'm actually all cute and fluffy in the inside as well as on the outside. *shows puppy eyes* It's true! Cross my heart and hope to die. *grins innocently*
Eh, what's this blood dripping out from the side of my mouth? *wipes it away*

Was watching the Super Juniors Adonis Camp Series on YouTube when I saw this at the side of the playlist.
Random laughter.. It really is addictive, the way YehSung laughed is really contagious. It got me laughing along as well. The look on RyeWook's face when he says "Aigo..", it's priceless.

Awww.. this one got my heart melt. LeeTeukie in a potato suit. Argh so cute!! I wanna hug him real tight and not let go!

Why do Korea have all these cute, weird games? I wanna play them too....

Outburst

Enough is enough and this is where I explode.
Yeah, I'm working for my dad. You can throw me all your comments like "Daddy's girl", "she's just going there to waste her time", "How can she learn while working with her dad, it does not apply to the theory of logic!" and other over-the-board-obsessedly-overlycritical remarks that you all may have and amuse me.

First of all, yeah I chose to work with my dad because he ask me to and how can you say no to your old man. Where's your sense of respect for the elders? Secondly, yeah I am doing REAL SWEAT,TEARS AND BLOOD work there. What?! Do you actually think money that I used grow on trees?

It kinda irks me whenever I tell people that I work for father and they give me some kind of look like, "ooh daddy's girl", "Huh, with your father?! WTFBBQSTWXYZ!! "
Why do I get this kind of weird reaction? Is it because initially I didn't want to come out and say that I'm my dad's employee? Okie, probably before this working for my dad wasn't my first choice. But hey! I kinda enjoy it now. You people should be encouraging me, not wiping shit all over my face. Yeah maybe that's where it stemmed out from.

So today I wanna announce to everybody that I'M WORKING FOR MY DAD AND I'M FREAKING HAPPY WHERE I AM AND DON'T YOU GO ON YOUR OWN ASSUMPTION THAT I'M HAVING SO MUCH FREAKING TIME TO SPEND JUST BECAUSE IT'S MY DADDY'S WORK AND DON'T GO GIVING ME SOME OH-LISTEN-TO-ME-WISE-OL-SAYING ADVICE THAT I WILL NOT GROW OR LEARN IN MY JOB! AND DON'T GO CRYSTAL-BALLING MY FUTURE SAYING THAT I WILL NOT LAST LONG IN THIS JOB!

What is so wrong with working with my dad? I don't get why people would give me that kind of tone like "Is it you can't find any jobs outside?", "Nobody wanna employ you is it? Poor thing". It feels like people are making fun of me of what I do on the job with that questioning tone 'You sure you're doing all those ah..." and the word 'working' means no-time-to-myself AKA I-can't-leave-my-job-on-a-whim-at-anytime-of-the-day AKA not-free-and-penniless. I don't need to *B E E P* explain *B E E P* what I've chose. Don't even need to *B E E P* justify myself why I *B E E P* did it.

So, I'm my daddy's little girl. DEAL WITH IT!!

In Need of a Soul Vacation

I feel sad, angry, discontentment, hate; all growing within me. How did I let this demon grow inside me. I can't contain it anymore. I hate going on trips especially this one trip called guilt trip. I know it's my fault and I'm sorry, do you have to keep reminding me? There are some things that I can do and can't do. I can't make everyone happy while making myself sad. Do you think I should choose that option? Please, don't torture my sanity anymore.

Don't force me to do stuff I don't want to. It's provoking my insanity to take over. I'm trying everything I could just to stay sane. Would it take up so much of your time to just think about my feelings before you speak or even make a decision? Complying to your wishes will make you very happy but would you be happy to know that I'm upset? Or maybe it doesn't work that way. You don't even care.

Would it kill you to just listen to what I have to say? Why should I listen to you if there's no one listening to me at all? Why should I take all this crap from you?

Don't make use of my gullibleness for your own pleasure.Don't make use of my patience for your own satisfaction. I can't take those anymore. I'm not so strong-willed as I may look and I may break down one of these days. It really takes up alot in me trying to make everyone happy, but why is it that I'm always at the losing end. Don't say 'you should', 'you should have', 'you could have', 'you must'; I know all of that....please, I don't want to hear them.

Reigniting the flame?

Ah... Perth, Australia. Going back there feels weird as though it's like going back to my second home. Come to think of it, it was. Going back to Uni feels even weirder. The same ol' route I'd used to take going to boring lectures and tutorials. Now I'm here just to take my graduation picture... wahahahha.. in your face! I don't need to take Transperth no.72,77 and no more seeing Curtin anymore! I'm not going to cry over my bloody assignments and stupid tutorial work anymore!

I was lining up in the queue waiting to get my regalia when I suddenly noticed a familiar face in front of me standing at the counter. JOSH!! ARGH!! My super cute tutor with a super cute voice and with a super cute way of talking. *imaginary frantic hand waving*
How I'd forced myself out of bed just to attend his tutorial at 8 in the morning.....

Should I say hi? Should I say, " Hey! It's me, Sherli! Remember?" and cry silently in a corner afterwards if he had totally forgotten about my puny existence.Thousand of options button came popping up in my mind.Which one should I choose? Can I close my eyes and just throw a dagger to choose one? What should I do?! What should I do?!

Blast it! My existence could not even compare to that of an ant. He stared blankly into my face as he walked past me. Not even a little hint of recognition, Josh? Me, in your class? Oh! The hurt! The pain! The agony! So long Josh. *sniff sniff* I've decided to wipe you off my past. MUAHAHHAHAHAHHA!!
Not that I'd actually remembered you until I saw your face. SSSssshhhhhhhh!!

The Golden Compass - Meet Your Daemon

Heys Laefe, meet people, people meet Laefe.

DIE CICADAS!!

As you walk, you thought that you'd heard footsteps behind you. You paused for awhile. You heard nothing and continued with your walking. But after awhile, you start to hear a fainter footstep. And when you stopped, that faint footstep, is just a second slower in stopping after you. Someone or something was breathing down the back of your neck. Slowly turning your head to see who it was, but it's only your shadow.......

You'd always felt that someone had always been watching you. Even when you close your eyes, you could still feel its stare right through your eyelids. But when you open to see who it was, all you see is the four walls around you....


SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!



When everything you do had never seemed right, whenever you're always the one to be blame, you felt that you need to end this right now. You took the blade and pulled it across your wrist. You thought blood would come gushing out, but something was not right. Maggots start crawling out of the wound, nibbling at the flesh. Instead of bleeding, you're dripping maggots. You tried to dig them all out but more starts to pour out from from the wound.....



LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES! LIES!



After watching Higurashi no Naku Koro ni, I felt extremely sick, physically and mentally. This is because, it had not only tested my low IQ to understand who got murdered and who was the murderer, but all the *screams bloody murder* scenes of those being murdered and tortured. I find it as sick as Silent Hill the movie.....

Higurashi no Naku Koro ni or When Cicadas Cry revolves around a small town call Hinamizawa and a strings of bizarre deaths or else also known as 'Oyashiro-sama's curse'. The anime revolves around five characters, each with their own different past and in each arc, either one of them dies or becomes the murderer. The curse starts when the town rallied against a dam construction:

1st year, the dam construction manager dies. (I hope I got this right)
2nd year, the 'Houjou' family that supports the dam dies,
3rd year, the priest that helped the 'Houjou' family dies
4th year, the mean aunt to the 'Houjou' sibling dies

First episode shocked me when I watched it, the first scene was somebody batting...... yeah.. batting the bodies that is. Blood was spraying everywhere on the wall, and he keep batting them although they were dead. Bones cracked and limbs become distorted each time the bat hits the body.... *pukes*

Higurashi season 1 consists of four question arcs and 2 answers arcs. Questions arcs are where the scenes where were made to question whether the killer is this specific person whereas the answer arcs explains the situations and the actual killer to the question arc.

The most painful scene for me where one of the character called Shion had to go through 'Distinction' to redeem her 'sins' and spectators who were from the three great family in Hinamizawa sat there to watch her remove her fingernails;yeah, not one but THREE! And the tool that they use was....*pukes dinners*. Looks really complex, you shave wood with it? They strapped her hand to the 'tool' and forcefully placed one of her fingernails into a slot. Somebody just hit the handle of the 'tool', it jerked upwards and all of a sudden, her fingernails when flying off her fingers into the air... Three times.......toetemo kurushii neh



Scenes where their faces twisted with evil laughter and thoughts were quite.......disturbing especially when they go "UNFORGIVABLE! UNFORGIVABLE! UNFORGIVABLE! UNFORGIVABLE! UNFORGIVABLE!" *violent rocking motion*

Or when they start taking out their weapons either the bat or the machete, or the taser......or.. kitchen knife....

When Geneon decided to licensed the anime, I had to stayed up 2 nights just to complete the whole season and endured through the sick torture scenes. In the end, I got really sick nightmare from it. Some corn-mill thingy bashing some dead person's skull............ I'd better not talk 'bout it.

At first I was intrigued to play the anime PS2 game, but to think that I didn't last 15 minutes on Fatal Frame 2, I decided to forget about it. I couldn't even imagine myself reading the manga. But the song is quite nice though, nice to put it on repeat.... *smiles evil twisted smile*




And now, I'm waiting for season 2 which is out in July that has the answer arc to the 2 remaining question arc as well as a new story arc.
WOOT?

Shifting to Emo Mode

Birds are chirping, the sun is shining, the wind is blowing and the flowers are blooming...but my soul is dying. "Happy! Happy! Joy! Joy!" had been erased from my dictionary.

Was expecting support from people that were the closest to me but I'd been slapped with a massive dissapointment in the face. Picture perfect painting destroyed right before my eyes. I don't want to be depended on, this burden. When I'd tried to lean on others, it just doesn't seem fair to them, does it?

I want to be selfish, very very selfish. I want to be ignorant, hopelessly ignorant. I had enough of this mask I put on. My emotional pillar is slowly crumbling from within. My sanity is slowly slipping away. Thinking too much is draining my energy. Denial is me and I'm a master escape artist.

A shoutout to the world:
You f&!#%^$# rotten hell hole!!!!!!

I'd wish people would understand me?! Who am I kidding....












It feels like I'm writing a suicide note, S.O.S.

A Whinny Brat, I am.

Kurushii...
Kanashii...
Totemo kurushii...... Doushite...


*sobs* words....A double-edged sword. One strike to the heart and it drains your blood slowly from the inside out. The wound just never seem to heal. The hurt just seem to devour you slowly and painfully.

Can you see that my heart is crying tears of blood? Masking my bloody wound behind that smile.
Every single word, every puny sentences, I'd just swallowed them in.

I'm going insane; depression, schizoprenia, all of them slowly kicking in...
I'm just good at denying. Denial is me.....
Running away is my skill.... After all, I'm just one whinny little brat, ain't I?! AIN'T I??!!

My idea of serenity.

"Sipping on a cup of coffee, reading my favourite book on a rainy day, listening to my favourite CD. The phone rings and someone's voice on the other end cheers me up."

Perfect. Blissful.
No, no family please. No little rugrats running around. Just me, alone, the house.. four walls.
ALONE! ALONE! GET IT?!! DON'T PUSH ME!!

The world is such a cold, cold place. Abusing myself with lies? Denying and suppressing myself what I think I should be feeling? Gripping what is not real but instead, an illusion. It's so hard. I don't deserve to live with others. I can't.

It hurts so much to think that nobody understands you. NONE! Enough of your lies. Don't act as if you know what I've been through.
Don't tell me it's okie. NEVER......... EVER.....
Ssssshhhhhh.... it's good to be quiet every now and then. The voice inside of me, shut up. Just shut up! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!!!ENOUGH!!!!
Yeah, I'm one whinny little brat... Is that good enough for you?!

Ah~~ I know. It's time.......... for my adrenaline rush....

Theme song : My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay

Anxious

Romeo X Juliet

Been waiting for this anime since December last year. The anime changes slightly from the original Shakespear's story where the heroine is not a maiden in distress and the setting is medieval fantasy. It even has pegasus flying around..

Juliet is not your average pretty maiden in this Gonzo animation. She fights against the Montague family disguising herself as a boy known as Red Whirlwind. A classic love story with an interesting twist. I believe it's worth a watch. Watch the trailer and you will know what I mean.

Click here for the official trailer.

Darker Than Black

A contractor, a strange emotionless girl and a hell gate that appeared out of nowhere in the city. Watching the trailer got me excited and I'm waiting anxiously for subbed episodes to come out. This anime has the same production team that worked on Wolf's Rain. Hooray for that!!

Just watching the OP for the anime gets me excited..OOOOOO *crosses all her fingers and toes for subbed episodes*

Click here for the official trailer.

Howling by Abingdon Boys School rocks!!
Kuro no Keiyakusha, means black contractor if I'm not mistaken. Enjoy!

Credits:- Random Curiosity

Bokura Ga Ita

My first impression of this anime, hmm.. the drawing kinda..suu..ck and the lead actress voice quivers making every hair on the back of my spine tingles with irritation. Sometimes people in the anime loses one of their eyes. Interesting art...
Well, after all I had nothing to do other than measuring the floor around me. *grins*



Bokura Ga Ita tells the story of a girl falling in love with the most popular guy in school(and she gets him! Grrr...)and going through relationship problems along the way ;jealousy, distrust, anger, etc. etc. And this 26 episode anime got interesting along the way too. First thing that comes to my mind was, would a guy fall in a love with a girl who always so desperately tries to grab his attention at any opportunity she can find. *ponders hard and finally gives up*



But nevertheless, with all the love!, action!, drama!, it got me hooked. Watching this anime makes you feel like the world you live in is a lie. Nevermind me, I'm just rambling. If you're in the mood for lo-vu lo-vu stuff, try watching this anime.

I'm Back

Muahahahaha... I've return. Luke, I am your FATHER!! *thunderous echo fades slowly in the background*

Ehem, as I was saying! I'm back! WOOT! Ang pau , ang pau! Gimme MORE! Coming back during Chinese New Year was a really smart move. But the only sad thing is that I've got no car. It's alright. Staying at home and surfing whole day is not bad either. That is until my dad has something to say.

Wahkakaka... Now I can DBSK all I want.

KAMSAH HAMNIDA, Lynnie & Pit Yin shi! Looking at all the DBSK stuff that they have stockpiled for me, makes me a very happy happy girl. All the best Pit Yin shi, and all the best for your coming exam unnie!

Sarangheyo~~~

The Fox & the Sour Grapes

What agony.. What torture...
Please give me back the internet..
need..to... go..on..line....need..to....go *dies*




Watching Jay's video clip 'Mi Die Xiang' got me thinking.. wow... romantis-nyaa... I wanna do that too!!

But reality smack me straight in the face, like a clown throwing a pie at you..... siapa si....
Met a cute guy in store today... okie.. cute.... not bad.. kinda okie.... got ticks on almost all the boxes on the list.. but too bad.. there's no what you call..... mojo going on..
My boss even said, " Hey Sherli, you should get a guy like this. He looks quite compassionate thinking 'bout his family. And his kinda cute too..."
I'm like...compasionate? I'm thinking generous. Judging from the things he stacked in his shopping basket.
When he reached the counter, my boss had a small chat with him then, she called out, "Hey Sherli! He's from Negeri Sembilan!" Wow, another huge tick for coming from my motherland, Malaysia.
"Seremban?" I asked, he smiled and answered a quick yes.
Then, he paid and he left...
"You takda interest ke, Sherli?" my boss chirped from behind...
Well, can I run out of the shop now and give him my number? You've got to be kidding me. Why didn't he asked for it?
Now... that explains why I'm still..... unattached.
I smiled and lied, "Takda, hehehehe."
Who knows he might actually has someone back home.
A classic story of 'The Fox and the Sour Grapes'. *winks*